By: NKnightmareB ~
Connected and lost in your eyes
I feel trapped inside;
A moment of tenderness than an eon of anguish;
This is what it is like to be intertwined with me;
Dispair is my comfort and lonliness is my heartbeat;
Why does it have to be so?
If only I could be free of this torment I feel;
To live again outside the coldness of my shattered soul;
But here I am once again at the mercy of sadness;
Twas it meant to be this way?
Alas I know the answer, I fear I have always known;
Some thing as simple as a warm smile and hot cup of coffee;
Aren’t so simple for me, they never have been;
I just can’t erase the way I am though heaven knows I’ve tried;
Was I always like this?
Maybe to the readers of this it will not make sense;
But to me this is crystal clear;
There is no calm before the storm;
There is no comfort before the agony;
Is there hope?
This is what this means in every essence of the word;
Those feelings of angst just will not subside;
I know this is not what you wanted to hear;
But this is me love me or not;
Can you love someone like this?
If Only you could;
Then perhaps our souls could become intertwined;
Maybe only then can I find warmth in the void;
To Be intertwined with someone that loves me;
Is that what I am missing?